Damn.

And blast. And much other, stronger, profanity.

They have failed me! WHY was I not told earlier my work was not complex enough!?! WHY, considering the number of crits and assessments my work went through, was I not told then that one of my buildings was not complex enough!?! They had months, MONTHS, to tell me, but oh no, they wanted to trip me well past the final hurdle. Well past the finishing line, for that matter.

The fact that I got a First for my dissertation is little recompense right now. Right now I'm seriously contemplating taking a dip in the river outside. A permanent dip. The annoying thing is that overall I got 42% for the year, which is a pass. With my 2nd year added I get 52%. The only reason I'm failing, the only reason right now I can't graduate is because in one part I got 35% and in another 28%. Ergo, there are others running lower overall grades than me who can graduate simply because they got higher marks in two little units! Gah! The shame, the anger, boils within me!

So, what now? Other than suicide I mean. The only other way out is to swallow my pride, do an arty-farty god-awful building for my concert hall (as it is only this one building which has dragged my mark down), thereby kissing up to the tutors, get baseline passes (40%) in my technical and final design units as a result and hope and pray this is enough to get me a *decent* 2:2 grade.

My tutors tell me a 2:2 is a very good mark for architecture. Well it ain't damn well good enough for me.